I Will Not Shut Up

Today I should break the silence
To the one that I feel attracted to right now
I must say that I've been silent too long
and I kill myself in the silence of dread

Why dread? It is only a natural impulse that I have
to know you better, to be more than just friends
I'll tell you the truth
I love you

No I don't want to hurt you
and I won't make you turn against your nature
I just have a right

A right I've been negating and negotiating
with the world I live in
for what good?
I do not know
it hasn't helped me
it only hurts me
it makes mad
and sad
and breaks my heart away

Not today …...
screw conventions
I have the right to say that I love

sure I've felt the same feelings for other people
but I've always been silent about it too....

shy, yes
that's one reason
and I've also felt fear
and shame
some were girls
I fell in love with
but most were boys

Did I ever kiss them?
No and yes
only in my dreams
that's where
my love live is right now
and it's a comfort
but it's surreal
and unreal

And all because
I am silent above all
and uphold a crazy
world
which drive me insane

Now today all I want to do
is end the evil silence
that stares at me
with death
and tell you that I love you

I will not force you to love me
and you don't have to love me
But I should not be kept in misty silence
anymore

No one should be force to shut up
just to please some social doctrine
I've suffered enough
I am unhappy
and I am screaming in pain

I hope you understand
that I just have to say
that I love you......
if the feeling is reciprocal
Will you let me know?
Will you be accept 'Te Amo'
from my lips
if so let me know
if not …..I'll know not to shut up next time
I get shot with a golden arrow.........